My Divine Friends,
Most of you already know that I’m writing a new book in which The Book of Dead meets Diaries of Bridget Jones LOL. It’s about me, the dead, the living, angels, universe, God, Gods, dieting and many other things related to the illusion we call life and beyond. The book is getting bigger by the day like a baby that growing inside of me and here I’m starting to get afraid of the birth. I even had a dream in which I was pregnant (and I was still a guy). In the dream I was thinking how the heck this baby will get out! You don’t have to be a psychotherapist or shaman to interpret this dream. I’m downright scared hehehe. Yeah I’m still laughing because I know I’ll do it anyway. I always do. I’ll walk up to my fear and watch it go ”puff!”

Did you know writing an autobiography can be so therapeutic? I didn’t! I now also see that it requires a certain emotional stability to face your past and voice your future dreams. Here I’m writing sentences like ”Archangel Michael told me this, Haniel says that…” but I didn’t always have the courage to speak up. One day I was the dancer whose biggest success was shaking all he’s got in front of 7000 people in a tiny golden costume and the next day I run around like a gay version of Joan of Arc telling people what angels say and sharing my visions. On other days I talk about co-creating your life or I recite principles of the universe from The Kybalion. Between these two extremes there are other Birkan’s : The Lover, The Traumatized Son, The Healer, The Counselor, The Court Jester, The You-Know-What of Babylonia…I keep bumping into aspects of myself that I forgot or suppressed. They all get to come to surface and speak up while writing.

There’s one thing that calms all Birkan’s down. One simple sentence: ”I love you”. ”I love you Birkan.” It still brings tears to my eyes. Meaning there’s more healing to do for me. I wouldn’t be any good to any of you if I can’t heal myself and god knows I do wanna do some good. By now many people learned that it’s essential that you love yourself, as the way you are but you do you know who you really are? I’d say it doesn’t hurt to discover but I can’t because it might. It’s a bit like an injection. It hurts at the beginning but once the treatment is over you feel much better. You are healed. Discovering yourself can be very rewarding:) You might discover aspects of yourself that would explain why you kept attracting certain friends and partners to your lives over and over again. You could see the connection between other repeating patterns in your lives.

There’s a bigger chance that you’ll discover how great you are rather than how worthless you are as some abusive people might want you to believe. It’s possible you were told that you are a pain in the neck, stupid, fat or similar things that can hurt your self image. I’ve met many bullies who scared people to death but they were the most scared deep inside. They looked like horrible people, even they were convinced that they were horrible yet once they dared look inside there was a little kid with huge eyes wanting love. You might discover that you have issues or that you’re a bit messed up but so what? You can get help. You can heal. Who doesn’t have or had issues anyway? Don’t forget you are still divine beings with a beautiful spark inside of you. Go deep enough to find the spark and make it shine through your eyes!

No, I’m not expecting you all to start writing autobiographies You could start with a journal where you can be really honest with yourself. Don’t be afraid to question your motives and feelings. In the mean time you’ll get to discover if there is any fear you need to release, resentment that needs to be forgiven or jealousy that would block you from manifesting your dreams. Our negative feelings can form a wall that keeps everything we’ve manifested away from us. Imagine all the prosperity, love and joy you’ve manifested and they can’t come into your life because you are so angry or jealous. Now, we don’t want that to happen, do we? So we better find out which walls we’ve build over the years and bring them down.

You could also work with a life coach to discover the real you or a therapist if necessary. As I always say: you don’t have to do it alone! You might say what if I can’t afford it and I’d say manifest it then! While manifesting the money for them you can reach out for support groups, volunteer/trainee life coaches, self-help books, Hay House Radio Shows, Free E-books (check if it’s legal) and don’t forget to request the help of your angels, guides, ancestors or who ever you feel comfortable working with. I said it many times and I’ll keep saying it all my life: you are not alone